You Could Be Happy ....

Dear : .......



I hate you, every part of you
theres nothing that i like about you ...


god, i wish all that was true....

but the fact is i still love you, i havent stopped, there isnt a day that goes by where i dont think of you, i think about you constantly

i think about what youre doing, thinking , and with who youre with
i cant stop thinking about you, i tried everything and it doesnt work
ive tried really hard to forget but i cant

We were together for so long, how could you just move on ?
How could you forget all we talked about & pretend it was never said



to be continued.......

U & Ur Hand...

Im not here for your entertainment,
you dont really wanna mess with me tonight
just stop and take a second i was fine
before you walked into my life..... its just U & Ur hand tonight!!!

Myspace status equals "Loving Kickback saturdays & Ackward sundays"

im trying to love life right now, im trying to love it more than him
its hard but as time goes by it gets easier... the conclusion is im not never ever getting over "it" completely i can say what i want, do what i do, and think what i want
but the truth is he is part of my life & always will
dont know if thats good or not but its the truth
its hard to be friends, but harder to not be

As ackward as tonight was ... I saw the look in the eyes, its one ive seen before many a times
i know how it is
& only i understand

Live Your Life...

"What you need to do is be thankful for the life you got,

know what I'm saying? Stop looking at what you ain't got

and start being thankful for what you do got"

Today I'm feeling a lack of motivation, ugh i hate how contradictory Ive become i say i want one thing and do the other, it hasn't even been a week and I'm already giving up

fuck!!!

I'm a counterfeit, i don't even get me, my actions, or my words

so much is going on around me, and i pretend that everything is peechie,

i pretend i smell the flowers and that i see how wonderful the world is

when in reality I'm just selfish and only care about myself

i never stop and think

i never stop and breathe

I'm consumed in a bubble, i don't want it to burst

i need to start being careful this cant be all its cracked up to be

i do have lots of great people and things around me and need to concentrate on what i have at the moment and stop thinking about my future and my past

HOW CLICHE!!!

Bottom Of The Ocean

Its been in the past for a while now,

I have slowly been letting go of the past, I'm excited that summer is officially over
which is weird because not many people look forward to the end of summer and the beginning of fall. I use to be one of those but this year things changed and I'm glad that its all over and done with.

I grew alot this past summer way more than i ever thought i would
my mind and my soul grew
but my heart was in shambles

this summer i learned the true meaning of "LOVE"

I learned that Love is undefinable and that Love cannot and should not define you
I learned that Love is real and it hurts
Love burns
Love makes you do crazy things
Love makes you smile & Love makes you cry
Love is splendid
Love is great
Love sucks
Love ........

i learned alot about LOVE

i was in Love for a long time
i lost that love

and in the process i learned that I LOVE myself

I learned that its better to walk away
I learned that letting go is hard to do
I learned that people will let you down, no matter how much faith and trust you give them
I learned that promises are only meant to be broken

this past summer i realized that I'm strong and I'm not as weak as i perceived myself to be

But yet there are still days where i miss being vulnerable,
i miss the days where i let my guard down
the days when i believed his promises
the days that i smiled


" This is it Let go Breathe
You don't have to love me for me to baby ever understand
Just know I love the time we both had
And I don't ever want to see you sad
Be happy And I don't wanna hold you
If you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
Be happy
Be happy "


I'M HAPPY ARE YOU ???

Hot & Cold!!

There's always something to write and always something to say...

Ive been meaningto have a blog for the longest time, but i never got around to it always had excuses but plain truth truth is i was preoccupied and lazy.

WOMP WOMP!!!!!!

I imagine having a blog that is far from perfect, i want a blog that is me.. a blog that defines my personality, my outrageous ideas, and my moodiness

I want a blog that isnt grammtically corrrect a blog that speaks the truth about my life

i wanna be my "shallow" self but i also wanna be "deep" i wanna express my ideas on this thing called life and i wanna write about my adoration for pop culture

My blog will be an oxymoron, but isnt life an oxymoron ??

well what is an oxymoron ... let me look it up

according to Dictionary.com

an oxymoron is "a figure of speech by which a locution produces an incongruous, seemingly self-contradictory effect, as in “cruel kindness” or “to make haste slowly."

MAKES SENSE, IM A PRETTY CONTRADICTORY GUY!!!